Ex`cru´ci`a`ble

After 5days of sleepless nite… finally i get 2 chill out awhile.. last thursday till monday was such a massive day.. stayed back in coll till 5 in d mornin.. everyday i seem 2 b comin back later dhen d day b4.. basicly me n my frens were preparing for an MSC animation pitch .. we were collaborating wift our college so dats y i get 2 stay back dat late in coll..i lost track of time n day.. n each day got more n more depressing for me as d stress took hold of myself..dhen when i tot things cudnt get any worse, i fell sick.. haih~ dat was sum week.. neway we were shorlisted into top 10 out of 48 contestants.. which is reallly gud.. especially since we were d oni college students 2 get choosen n d other 9 contestants were all top established post production companies..n we were basicly rushin against time coz we needed 2 do d presentation on monday 2 actually win a grant of 50k and we had only 4 days to prepare our animations n models+textures… anyway.. d day of d presentation finally arrived on monday.. n we neva had a decent sleep all dis while..so we all basicly went 2 cyberjaya lookin like wrecked boat.. we were supposed 2 b doin dis presentation in sum hotel named asian spa wateva hotel.. n man was dat place cool or wat..  when we arrived dhere.. d doorman opened dis huge door for me.. i was thinking whooaa i can get used 2 dis..hehe.. well anyway.. at d animation pitch dhere were all sort of companies.. all big tycoon post production companies.. got 2 meet lots of famous animators ..2d artist.. cartoonist..press n etc.. it was just gr8.. anyway.. d sucky part is we din make it for top 5.. but at dat moment.. i was feelin relief n abit dissapointed.. coz if we did make it 2 top 5..dhen id probably in more bigger n massive stress.. but ,i, for one thing m extremely glad that we actually made it 2 top 10 n were d oni student body between 9 other postprdtion company.. dat kinda actually sums us as d same level wift d ppcompanies..

after all dat lil havoc i went thru for d past few days..i came back n slept.. for 6 hours straight..n yesterday basicly bummed around..n had a chillin day.. 2day was quite a cool day.. woke up coz mum asked me 2 get sum stuff from d fed ex dude outside.. so still in my pjs had 2 run out 2 take wateva d fed ex dude was passin.. n 2 my suprise it was for my bro of all ppl.. his 1st parcel..hehe.. neway d parcel was from spore disney company.. he won sum cars movie competition.. lucky him.. he got a hugetoycar dat looklike lightning mcqueen..n it actuaallly says kacoooww!..hehe.. later in d afternoon went out wift mum 2 I0I mall.. so off we went..did sum shoppin.. got my self sum top from ethnic sense.. n bought my dad sum tshirt from snails..but damn i forgot 2 buy d most important thing  i wanted 2 buy .. i had my heart set out for dis really cool rainbow coloured watch.. it was pweety funky ..i like funky colours..dhen after all dat pigged out in kfc n went back..
O whow i cant believe it..in another 3 more weeks.. my course is over.. darn dat reminds me of my datelines.. Aitz gottarun ciao..

People
see you as an object, not as a person, and they project a set of
expectations onto you. People who don’t have it think beauty is a
blessing, but actually it sets you apart.
 -Candace Bergen

This quote plays a huge role in mylife.. i guess everyone has expectations set on u 2 live up 2..sumhow i think if its ure own expectations..dats fine.. even if its others who have expectations on u its totally fine..wats not fine is High expectations..when u start livin up 2 dat..u just seem 2 lose ureself in d process.. Many of us struggle with expectations..

“…dreams so often get confused with expectations …you end up aiming for the expectations instead of just living the life that comes to you…”

We expect d most n d best of everything.We r an affluent culture with many choices n many material possessions.We r a culture where individuals constantly compare themselves 2each
        other. We c others having or achieving things n we expect 2 have or achieve d best of whatever we c. D media n their advertisers 
promote these expectations – if u take this pill u will feel happy n have friends, if u use this mouthwash u will have a healthy relationship, or if u vote for d rite presidential candidate u will b free from d fear of terrorism. Expectations r an emotional trap. They set us up 4 failure, disappointment and ultimately grief. They get us in2 trouble with others n with our sense of self.There is always pros n cons.. so i wudnt say expectations is all dat bad..just as long as u don let it b everythin..

-ranz-
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Back again.. haih..it had been quite a week..more like a roller coaster…England lost!!*sobs* i hate christinoR!!..urgh!!If i ever c him upfront..ill kick d life out of him(for real!)..dats 4 causin roo 2 b outofdgame n oso 4 betrayin ManU and changin 2 RMadrid…  Argn lost! *watd heck*  Brazil lost! *WHoa*.. okok me just like everyone havin dis wc fever dat neva seem 2 end.. haih stayin up late as usual 2 watch d games..n dhen sleepin till late afternoon..Dis world cup sucks!…tsk tsk.. Italy u guys better  win d wc.. haih..im tellin u.. i dunno wats d level of my Bp  whenever i watch tis games..i think im gonna die young!..

Ciaoz
-|Ran|-